Just wanna let you know that is gonna be a long post so grab yourself some snack and drinks while reading HAHA!


Today was my 3rd day going to the gym and I'm really loving it. I always feel anxious whenever I'm going to a new place with new environment surround with total strangers around. So as gym but today I've become stronger and confident to enter the gym, wearing gym outfits as I l want, finish my workout feeling like a second home. And I thought back 4 years ago how I was pulling myself to the gym and how I was today, I thought why not sharing my experience to girls out there who are shy or embarrassed to even enter the gym and give more confidence to you.

Before I started, let me take you back to 4 years ago who I was not even a fitness lover. I hated workout. Truthfully I was lazy to HAHA. I was not fat but I'm surprisingly quite heavy and I have a huge hip. I have always wanted to lose weight to gain body balance but I was lazy to workout. (anyway I will talk about this topic on the other time)

4 years ago I did signed up for a gym. I don't even know how was it based on how I was super anxious to even enter the gym and talking with the trainer there. I was really nervous and anxious while entering so I brought a friend with me to think I will have a partner with me but she didn't sign up anyway HAHA. I was really convinced by the trainer to lose weight and tone my body up as he told me that he train pageants and other celebrity (yeah that's how you fall for it HAHA) obviously I was SOLD. I sign up for the gym package and get myself a trainer because... I've never been to gym, I know nothing about equipment (barbell? what that's? ringing bell? HAHA) yeah I was exactly like that, a noob newbie. AND I started.

Seriously I was not motivated, at all. I went to the gym on my 1st day and he ask me to warm up at the treadmill which I hated it. I hate walking and running that's why I never go for treadmill. He gave me some workout which I felt so difficult, I can't even lift myself up and I felt like a loser. I just feel that I'm sucks. So you might think how do I feel anxious?  I stick to my trainer all the time, I felt super scared when he left me alone and felt like people was looking at me which I'm over thinking HAHA. If you feel the same way as I am, don't be! Obviously nobody is looking at you! Nobody is even bother to care about you as they are struggling on their rep maybe HAHA.

After my personal trainer session was over, I was all by myself. And do you know what happen? Yeap, I gave free donation every month as I didn't go to the gym. I pay every month as usual but didn't fully utilized it. By the way actually I did. I went to the gym for a time and I was super scared plus really shy to ask the staff on how to use the machine. In the end I stuck for a 30 min wandering around and out of it. I was really shy. I was scared with people around me, feeling that people are watching how sucks my movement are, or shy to ask for help or even showering there omg how hilarious I am back then. And I got scam by the gym urgh. (is a long story)

Fast forward to today, I have found workout that I really enjoy, POP Pilates and comes to lifting weights. I started at home with dumbbells that I bought, slowly building myself up and learning proper forms and I love it!



So when I came to NZ, I was happy that the apartment I stay has a gym with few machines and I was like yay! got to use some machines for the 1st time! But guess what? I chicken out. I was shy and nervous. Recall how I didn't dare to go to my previous gym actually makes me feels that I'm not capable to do it. I was such a failure that's what I thought. So I actually posted on my instagram asking for some motivation to the gym and I was really blessed with people encouragement to go for it. Someone even told me to put on my headphone blasting loud music and enter to your own world HAHA!


1st photo in apartment gym :)

I'm giving myself lots of excuses. I told myself everyday that I'm not feeling good, oh I need to poop, OH I'm finding some motivation or I think I need to feed my sheep and cow and I will have no time blah blah blah to avoid the gym. And I realize I was really funny HAHA! So I didn't go straight to the gym when I know I have the access because I was really scare and shy. It was not easy for me and I know lots of people out there feel the same as I am. But be confident. Tell yourself is gonna be fine, nobody is gonna watch you, you will be fine, that's what the gym was suppose to be for people to workout regardless how good they are or how many squats you can do, it doesn't matter at all. You are You and you are competing with yourself, not others.

So 1 day I pull my confidence up and drag myself to the gym and I was surprised to saw people in the gym. I was like OMG WHY GOD and I wanna go back now. Stunning there for a few seconds and I walk to the treadmill. My mind was spinning and telling myself is PIIT today, I gotta do it,I can't ruin my schedule, I need to do it. I calm myself down and eventually roll my mat down and go for it. and that's how I was not afraid anymore! Of cos there are people around me and I have to move some space but surprisingly I finish my workout smoothly! From that day onwards, I was not afraid anymore to go the gym with my workout clothes that I wanted to wear or carrying my dumbbells with me, I just feel awesome! Same goes to the gym center now which I sign up for 2 days ago and I feel like a prep before I go for a bigger gym! I feel so confidence going to the gym and I was way more knowledge as I used to about machines and started to use weights like a pro HAHA. Everything is running smoothly!

And today I'm looking forward everyday to get myself to the gym and workout, is like a second home to me. 2 things I would like to share with you are 1. get yourself a headphone and turn it loud with awesome songs and wear your confidence with you every time and you will be alright. If you are a 1st timer going to the gym, my advise is to just DRAG DRAG DRAG YOURSELF to the gym and you will be ok. Always the 1st step that makes the difference, don't cha think? Once you are able to go the gym for the 1st time, you are eventually got it! You will not be afraid of it and concentrate on building the body you want and makes it into your lifestyle!

Sorry for the lengthy post and I hope my experience helps and motivate you to the gym and get yourself into the fitness lifestyle. If there is any post that you like me to write, please let me know and enjoy your time in the gym!