Just an excuse to post a selfie of me. I think I'm losing something again? Not a very positive minded now because so many bad happen in such a short period of time. I wanna get rid of everything asap and start a new life.

I'm seriously under a heavy pressure and stress, I think I'm gonna crazy soon.

I can't believe that someone wants me to be happy but in the same time giving me lots of pressure. Sorry I don't understand a thing what you meant and I have no idea that you love me too. Who are you that I have to tell you everything? Why should I be telling you my problems? Be my listener? Sorry I don't need it. You can't help me in anything. Because you can't even do a thing right so why should I look for you?

I'm seriously tired of everything. I'm happy when I was alone at overseas so that I have excuses for not seeing you. Because I hate the past. So much that I wanna abandon it away.

I can't believe is May now. I have not yet done anything yet there are still matters not settle yet. My job have not yet moving forward and there's something huge occurring me now. I might lose money and gain a lesson. A HUGE lesson. Telling me not to trust easily and sign anything without thinking. I admit I was stupid for making mistake but I have done what I can to settle it. But to the extend of sending e-mails to them with no reply was rude. Ask for solution and agreement, trying to make it good for each other benefit and there, sent me a letter asking for more.

I think that's what people said, 'once you earn a little extra money, you intend to get more for yourself '.

Have to stop crying and face it. Give me support and wisdom god. :')