Just an excuse to post a selfie of me. I think I'm losing something again? Not a very positive minded now because so many bad happen in such a short period of time. I wanna get rid of everything asap and start a new life.

I'm seriously under a heavy pressure and stress, I think I'm gonna crazy soon.

I can't believe that someone wants me to be happy but in the same time giving me lots of pressure. Sorry I don't understand a thing what you meant and I have no idea that you love me too. Who are you that I have to tell you everything? Why should I be telling you my problems? Be my listener? Sorry I don't need it. You can't help me in anything. Because you can't even do a thing right so why should I look for you?

I'm seriously tired of everything. I'm happy when I was alone at overseas so that I have excuses for not seeing you. Because I hate the past. So much that I wanna abandon it away.

I can't believe is May now. I have not yet done anything yet there are still matters not settle yet. My job have not yet moving forward and there's something huge occurring me now. I might lose money and gain a lesson. A HUGE lesson. Telling me not to trust easily and sign anything without thinking. I admit I was stupid for making mistake but I have done what I can to settle it. But to the extend of sending e-mails to them with no reply was rude. Ask for solution and agreement, trying to make it good for each other benefit and there, sent me a letter asking for more.

I think that's what people said, 'once you earn a little extra money, you intend to get more for yourself '.

Have to stop crying and face it. Give me support and wisdom god. :')

Cooking maggi now because I'm so hungry and is 3am now T__T

I have cut down on eating instant noodle ever since I came back from Korea because I was living there surviving with ramen everyday. Practically I had cup ramen with bulgogi/jajang tuna can.

I think that I've almost tasted all types of flavor/texturesoftheramen/dry/soup/orwhateverisit cup ramen in Seoul. Maybe not. (That's what I think for now)

So when I'm back to Malaysia, I only want chee cheong fun. And Pan Mee. Or Wan Tan Mee.

But I was too hungry and my stomach keep on singing "food is all I need~" so I went to the laziest cooking of all.

Dry Noodle.



And a photo to end my post. Gotta finish it and sleep soon. Cao.

I think people stay in Malaysia/ Kuala Lumpur tend to know what is HUKM right? HUKM stands for Hospital Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia. It is located at Bandar Tun Razak, Cheras. Well, my mum is now staying at this hospital and seriously I've started to hate this hospital.

Not the hospital sucks, but the people here. No respect and manners! Especially Malays. Are they racist or what?? I talk to them in a polite way and they just answer me with a LANCI face and voice tone. Feel like wanna slap them and spank their butt ==!!

Why am I angry with them?

Case 1
The 1st day me and my mum friend went to the hospital to visit my mum and bought her some dinner. It is 8pm and the guard told me to register as the visitation hours has already over. Ok, I went to the counter to register and they told me that only 2 persons are allow to go in. Luckily there's only 2 persons here, which is me and my mum friend. While I was talking to my mum, suddenly I received a call from my aunty that she had arrived in the hospital with my cousin sis, Kim. They told me that the guard doesn't let them in since me and my mum friend were already went up to the ward room. I quickly went down to pick them up. But when I let them in, the guard doesn't let me in!! I was like WTF and I told them that my mum wanted to see me so badly. They talk to me in a rude way, "Banyak orang pun macam ini, semua pun masuk la! Dah lepas masa lawat, cuma boleh 2 orang je masuk lah!" Walao!! Talk in a LC and so called 'proud' face, and do you know what I saw?? They're letting more than 3 MALAYS to go in!! Am I being rude or they just being racist??  So I went to another entrance and the guards stop me from going in! I cried and sit on the floor like a beggar :X And they just let a girl wander off in the dark place just to follow the RULES!! And they let others Malays in!!


 Case 2
After my mum transfer from ICU to normal ward, she was placed on the 1st row so that if anything happen, the nurses can straight away went to her. But unfortunately, my mum's neighbour is a Malay women. Everyday my mum complains about the noises and children running around makes her feel headache and she can't sleep well. Imagine the WHOLE FAMILY of the patient came to see her?! Son and daughter, grandson and granddaughter, uncle and aunt, and blah blah blah~ making so much noises and the nurses doesn't warn them! I remembered once I was laughing with my mum and one of the nurse came and scold us. WTF!


Case 3 
When we went to pay for our bill payment. Can't imagine that it's so freaking expensive!! My aunt try to talk to the cashier to apply installment and so whatever so that we doesn't have to pay much and do you know what they told us?
"Tak boleh! Tak boleh! Kena bayar full amount baru boleh ambil ubat dan appointment card!"
"OK! Fair enough, how about we talk about it so that I can settle the bill and on the same time give me the medicine?" "I'll pay RM500 1st and the balance I pay by installment in the future?"
"Tak boleh! Kena bayar RM1000 dulu kerana ini adalah amount yang besar!"
"I understand. It's because the amount is huge that's why I ask for installment!"
"Tak BOLEH! Kalau you mau discharge dari hospital dan ambil ubat, kena bayar dulu. Kalau tidak, tak payah ambil ubat!"

Walao!! They doesn't care about the consequences of a patient and they force us to pay! Hello! I understand,  we have to pay but please! understand our situation. Do you think that I can predict that my mum will fainted at the restaurant and sent to the hospital? Do you think I can predict that my mum's brain has problem? Do you think that I can predict that my mum will stayed in the hospital for such a long freaking days? And do you think that I will argue with you about the payment if I have the money to pay? Use you brain and think la! Your mindset are always the same. Chinese is RICH, Indian is AVERAGE, Malays are POOR. So Chinese have to pay the full amount and Malays get FOC or DISCOUNT? Not every Chinese are rich, and even though we are rich, we WORK HARD on it. And we have to pay tax la, this and that la, just to feed you all Malays to eat and stay! Admit it and work hard for your own, you are not stupid. You can be a successful or a rich person. Use more brain and learn to respect others.

I understand that rules have to follow so that people will obey. But talk in a polite way and respect other races. I always believe that Malays, Indian and Chinese can be united together, but from this experience I felt that I have started to lose the confidence between you guys. Im not a racist person, I have Malays friends and I think that they are cute and nice. Change your mindset and think it as 1MALAYSIA.

I had to say that there's lot of things happen in my life,

YES! I WAS WRONG, U was wrong...