There were times that decisions are hard to made. Roads that you facing. Things that you don't wanna let go. Ends up you don't even know what you want.

That is me now. Trying to figure out what to do next. I was dilemma-ing on what to do with my career and future that I wanna walk. I once thought that someone will be everything. My target of life and purpose of a part of my life. And it just gone. Gone in a blink of eye. Never and unable to return to what it was. I guess I was lonely and always believe that I have to grab it when there are things that you cannot buy with money. I'm turning into a negative thinker now after the break ups. No reply, no call, no reading texts. Just nothing. And we have to learn to forget it and let it go by time.But were we able to forget everything by not thinking of it? Frankly speaking I actually hasn't putting everything down yet. The relationship has become a burden and a thorn that stuck in my heart and I wasn't able to pluck it out yet. Is really bothering me now and it makes my decision making become tougher and tougher.

Omg everyday sleep in the morning and wake up in the afternoon really makes me a zombie now. I was too stress in everything and I just realize that I'm afraid to sleep. I need a escape soon man or I'll get crazy aleluya.